Clean

 

April 15, 2012

 

It’s the cleanest place I’ve ever seen. Not one thing out of place, not even in the kitchen.

And you wouldn’t know she owned a cat, least of all two, until you saw them sprawled.

All of it, like a dream, or a cloud, a drifting sense of lost senses the moment I come through the door.

Soft but not too soft.

Like a biosphere in which all the elements are pre set, to some idea she has in the back of her mind, leaving me to figure out where exactly I fit into the scheme.

She knows how I ache to fit in even when we both know I am too imperfect, a flawed piece of furniture with some scrape or nick turned against the wall to keep from sight, a flaw I can’t cover up even though it is hidden deep inside of me.