From “Street Life”
On Any Corner
She was cold. The
fake fur around her shoulders wouldn't keep it out, any more than the phoney
flames flickering in the bar windows. She shivered and huddled deeper into the
doorway, clamping her teeth to prevent their chattering. People came-- largely
couples crawling up from from Wall Street, laughing heartily among themselves
as they weaved in and out of the islands of light, their faces bloated and
cheery from drink.
She stepped
before them, a wavering smile touching her thin painted lips. They egnored her,
moving around her as if she didn't exist, without pause in their conversation.
They vanished as quickly as they came, into the creeky doors of trendy dock
side establishement or shouting down cabs in the fog.
The wind moved
the fog deeper into the city, covering and uncovering secret little treasures,
blowing fast-food wrappers along the curb. One flattened itself around Mamey's
stocking'd leg.
"Damn
it," she said, snatching it off, her long red nail leaving a hole where
the paper had been.
A bar light
flashed on and off behind her, the sign reading "Heaven's Abode." It
was surrounded by two eccentric angels whose sly eyes shifted with each blink.
One of the bar doors openned with a groan, turning Mamey immediately from her
sidewalk march.
A well-dress man
with short hair and a long overcoat eased
out, staggering slightly, pausing at the edge of the fog to light a
cigarette, the match illuminating his features-- a young, downtown business
exectutive clean-shaven.
"The damned
fool," he mumbled.
"Hey,
honey," Mamey said. "You want a date?"
He looked up
sharply, his hard gaze surveying her with disgust.
"Get the
hell out of here," he, crushing the half-smoked cigarette under his heel.
"I'm from Jersey, but that doesn't make me stupid. I don't mess with
grandmothers."
He slipped away
into the fog.
"You son of
a bitch!" Mamey yelled. "You probably do it in a towel!"
Her voice died,
but she regretted her reaction. All she needed was for Kracko to hear her.
Grandmother? She
didn't look a day over thirty.
"Well that
was clever," someone said from another darkened doorway.
"Kracko,
honey!" Maney said, flashing a smile at the smooth-faced black man who
appeared in the light, a flobby straw hat pushed down over his eyes. He stopped
a yard away and pushed up his hat with a forefinger.
"You look
like I feel after a week of drinking," he said. "Was that a mark I
saw walking away from here, baby-cakes?"
Mamey nodded
dumbly.
"Then why
didn't you hit on him?"
"I did hit
on him, Kracko. But he was in an awful hurry."
"Hurrying to
get away from you, you mean!"
"But he
didn't want nothing, Kracko."
"Damn it,
woman. A man's a man, and a good lady knows how to make him want something.
Right now he's probably headed uptown to get himself a younger piece. One of
Dell's little girls."
"I get them
sometimes, Kracko," Mamey said, sagging against the cool metal of the lamp
post.
"When? You
ain't had a trick in a week. That ain't exactly knocking `em dead."
"I know, I
know," she said, her head down.
"Well if you
know so much, why ain't you doing something about it? Or ain't that got into
your head yet either?"
She looked up,
her eyes questioning, blinking thick blue eyeshadow to the skin below her brow.
"The scene,
girl. Can't you dig the scene?" Kracko spread his hands. "Don't this
look like the end of the world to you? There ain't a whole lot more steps down
from here, Baby-cakes. If you can't make it here, it's out with the dish water,
dig?"
"I'm trying,
Kracko."
"I'm trying,
Krac-ko," Kracko mocked. "I'm trying! What kind of talk is that?
Trying don't pay no bills. It don't keep no loan sharks off my ass neither.
Those uptown boys ain't exactly Chase Manhattan bank when it comes to waiting
on payment."
"I thought
you had a drug thing going," Mamey said. "Doesn't that pay?"
Kracko's cool
expression cracked slightly as he glanced hurried away in the direction of the
river. The sound of water came, flapping against the dock side, spreading an
uneven rhythm to the various strains of music escaping from bar doors and
apartment windows.
"Drugs ain't
exactly blooming either," he mumbled. "Some fool politician's always
cracking down. If it ain't the city, then it's the state, and if it ain't the
state, it's the feds." He spat off to the side then shook his head.
"But it's always the little guy that gets cracked down on, if you dig. All
those Park Ave dudes with their big cars and facny titles skip on by with a
little plug to the mayor or Governor. I ain't got cash enough to pay for my
laundry. How am I suppose to pay the man?"
"I didn't
know, Kracko. I thought you were rolling in dough."
Kracko's face
split into a web-work of lines. "Now ain't that some asset," he said.
"A bitch that thinks. Don't you dig it yet? You ain't supposed to think,
you're supposed to pitch. Cause when the uptown boys come to collect, I'd
better have bucks to give them-- of we's both out. You out of a job. Me out of
my skin."
They stood silent
for a moment as another wave of fog rolled in, separating them, like large grey
hands of giant reaching in towards the heart of the city. The volume of music
rose with the openning bar door. A young blond girl stepped out, reeking of New
Jersey. She couldn't been more than seventeen, though she staggered slightly as
she descended the step, holding her polished nails across her lips as she
burbed.
Kracko
straightened, the lines fading again as he gaze grew interested. "Now
ain't she sweet."
"Take it
easy, Kracko," Mamey said. "That girl's jail bait if I ever saw
it."
A sly look
shifted its way towards Mamey. "If that's so, why she drunk? No bartender
gonna serve a sweet face like that unless she got credentials saying she's of
age."
"There's
ways of getting those," Mamey said. "You know that better than
anyone."
The girl stepped
out from the door, the fog washing away from her bold clothing-- short gold
skirt, thin black jacket. Her flowing white shirt revealed two blossoming
breasts.
Kracko whistled
slowly.
"Paul?"
the girl said, her voice tentative. "Where are you, Paul. Don't kid around
like this. You're not being funny."
"She must be
with the boy I saw," Mamey said.
"Was
with," Kracko said. "She ain't with nobody now."
"Paul, please!
I didn't mean anything by what I said in there. You look as macho as any of
those dock men, honest."
But her words
were lost like smoke to the swirling fog-- a tug horn hooted from the river.
"Damn,"
she hissed and kitched at the curb, then slumped against the brick wall, her
arms folded across her chest.
Kracko smiled,
glancing at Mamey.
"Why don't
you go dig up that mark again," he said, tugging down on his jacket
sleeves, one at a time, as if cracking his knuckles.
"He's long
gone by this time. Besides, he wasn't interested. Marks just aren't the same
these days. They don't seem to be as interested in sex as they used to
be."
Kracko eyed Mamey
spuriously "I wonder why."
"Maybe it's
the place, Kracko. Most of the men that come down here, come for booze not
women, and by the time they leave their so dead drunk they don't want anything
but a place to lay down. Maybe we could go uptown some and find us a better
place, where the cliental has more class."
"Marks are
always looking for sex, baby-cakes," Kracko said, eyeing the girl near the
bar door. "it ain't the neighborhood. Besides, we've been uptown already.
Remember?"
"To yuppie
bars. That doesn't count. Yuppies want money, not me."
"Don't start
that diabribe again," Kracko moaned. "Yuppies like women well enough,
and they got money enough to pay for the ones they want. What they got sick of
was seeing this old whore outside their door, getting older and fatter right
before their eyes."
"I'm not
that heavy, Kracko," Mamey protested. "And I'm losing it,
honest."
"Losing, my
ass! I'll bet you gained another pound or two just today."
The girl looked
up, apparently aware of the voices, her dialated eyes narrowing as the faces of
Mamey and Kracko appeared with the shifting fog.
"Paul?"
the girl said, her voice growing stronger. "Please, Paul. I'm getting
cold."
"It's not
like I don't diet," Mamey continued. "I hardly eat anything all day.
It's just that the more I try to lose, the more I seem to gain."
"Maybe you
can diet off the wrinkles while you're at it."
Mamey looked up
sharply, her expression pained. "Kracko?"
"Paul?"
the girl asked.
"Let's face
it, Baby-cakes," Kracko said to Mamey. "Your days as a street walker
are numbered."
"Don't say
that, Kracko. I'll loose weight. I promise. And I'll knock them dead, just like
I used to."
Kracko laughed.
"You never knocked them dead. Not when I got you. You were always the
motherly type. Some marks like to be mothered. But face it, none of them wants
to go to bed with a bitch that looks like their mother."
"Paul?"
the girl said, her sharp heals clicking on the side walk as she moved first one
way then the other, coming to the wall of white, stopping. "Quit kidding
Paul. It's getting cold out here. Come back. I'll make things good for
you."
Kracko's eyebrows
rose, as he looked across the street at the pacing girl. "Now if I had
something like that to work with, Baby. I wouldn't have to worry about no
mob-men coming to break my legs. I wouldn't have no other pimps laughing behind
my back either."
"She's too
young."
"Which goes
to show how out of touch you are. Young's the way marks like them these days.
The younger the better."
For a moment,
they both fell silent, with only the clicking panicky heals of the girl filling
the space where traffic horns might have on a clear night. A deep fog horn
sounded again from the river, then the cough of someone moving through the
white with a shuffled step.
The drunk
staggered into view on the far side of the street, stopping short at the sight
of the girl, a lusting grin smeared across his bubbling mouth.
"S-Say, now
ain't you the c-cute one," the drunk said. "Why d-don't you and
m-m-me step around the corner for a little f-fun?"
"Fuck
off," the girl snapped. "My boyfriend's around here and he's a big
man."
But the drunk's
grin never wavered. "Oh come on, honey," he said, grabbing at her
arm. "I don't see no bad wolf around here?"
"I told you
to leave me alone!" the girl said, yanking her arm free.
"You got a
problem, girl?" Kracko shouted as he crossed the street.
The girl looked
up gratefully. "Yeah. This man here won't leave me alone."
"Is that
so?" Kracko growled, looking over the drunk. "You got some problem,
man?"
The drunk
staggered back, eyeying Kracko's hard exterior, blinking and wiping his mouth
on his sleeve.
"Problem?
N-No problem-- except that your damned whore won't come along with me. And it
ain't like I can't pay."
The drunk pulled
out a wad of bills, waving them under the girl's nose.
"I'll come
with you, sweetheart," Mamey said, striding across the street, her thin
lips quivering as she tried to smile.
The drunk looked
at her, his face tightening around the jaw. "I don't want to go with
you."
"Why
not?"
"Because I
don't," the drunk said. "I want this one or nobody." The drunk
peered at Kracko. "What k-kind of g-game are you playing here, putting
this young thing out like b-bait."
"I'm not
anyone's bait!" The girl said. "I don't know what any of your are
talking about. I'm just out here looking for my boyfriend. We had a fight and
he walked out on me. I know he's not far away. He wouldn't go far from me. So
if you people don't watch yourselves, he'll show you what a college line-backer
can do."
"Horseshit!"
the drunk said, spitting off into the gutter. "Damn whores can't be
trusted for nothing."
He staggered back
into the fog still cursing.
"Hey,
Pal!" Kracko shouted. "Come back. I'll give you a discount on the old
whore. She ain't near as bad as she looks. Besides, what difference does it
make. They all look the same with the lights off!"
"Shut up,
Kracko," Mamey said. "I wouldn't do it with that mark if he paid me
double."
"Shut up?
Since when have you gotten so uppity, baby-cakes?"
"Since you
started renting me out on discount."
"I wouldn't
have to if you earned your way."
"I've done
fine by you, Kracko," Mamey said. "You just don't appreciate what
I've done-- you're not the one that has to crawl into the sack with some of
these slime-buckets."
Kracko sighed.
"You know, baby-cakes. That's your problem. You're just too selective.
This ain't the kind of business where you can pick and choose. You dig?
Especially looking like you do. Now if you looked like this chick here, that
would be a different story."
Kracko stepped
back and looked over the girl. She shook her hair back and smiled.
"It's nice
to be appreciated by someone," she said, half-heartedly. "I don't
know what's gotten into Paul, leaving me here like this. It wasn't like we had
a terrible row or anything. Not like the one we had on the way through the
tunnel. You'd think by the way he acted, he'd planned to leave me here."
Kracko's smile
widened. "Hey, you know how marks are, sweety. Can't trust them to do what
they say."
"I don't
know," the girl said. "I thought I could trust Paul. He's always been
so sweet to me, telling me not to worry about anything, telling me about this
perfect little lovenest place over in the city where we could get it on."
She looked back
at the bar and shivered.
"This place,
I asked him. It looks like a dump. But he said it wasn't so easy getting me
served with my sweet face-- if I looked older, I could get in at some of the
uptown places. But I got ID as good as anyone's."
She plucked out
her wallet and held up the fake driver's license, which Kracko politely
examined.
"She looks
like you," he said, "But no bartender's gonna believe you're twenty
one."
"That's what
Paul said, too. But this place? It must be cleaner in the sewer!" She
shivered again and looked to the fog. "Now I don't know how I'm going to
get home."
"There's always the bus, Honey," Mamey said.
"A
bus?" the girl said, looking queerly at Mamey.
"Don't tell
me you never heard of one of those, dear? You can get one uptown at the Port
Authority, just about any time night or day."
The girl's
shoulders shrugged helplessly. "I could if I had any money. But Paul was
so sweet. Paul insisted I leave everything but my id under the seat of the car.
`My treat,' he told me. `Don't want you to get it into your head to spend
anything for yourself.'"
"Money's no
problem," Kracko said, his long arm sweeping around the girl's small
shoulder. "But we can't have you walking those dangerous uptown streets
all alone. Maybe I should escort you up there to make sure you get on all
right?"
The girl looked
up gratefully.
"Oh, that
would be too kind of you," she said. "But all I really need is enough
money for a phone call-- God knows who I'd call. Pauly obviously won't come.
And father...."
She shuddered
again.
"No, no,
sweety," Kracko said. "Money ain't a problem when you look like you
do. We could pick up enough for the bus just flapping your lashes."
"Kracko," Mamey said, grabbing the
man's arm. "Don't be stupid. You can't go uptown-- not with those dudes
looking to break your legs. You show your face above 34th street and you won't
have a face to show."
Kracko grinned.
"But
Baby-cakes, we'd just be going to the Authorty-- not into any of those
places, just a quick slip over the boundry and back without no one noticing
nothing."
"With her?
That'll be like no one noticing the Good Year Blimp."
The girl
bristolled. "I'm not the one that looks like a blimp, lady!"
Mamey sighed.
"That's not what I meant! Oh, let her go, Kracko. She really isn't what
you want anyway. She doesn't have what it takes to survive the street."
"I wasn't
planning on making her walk the street," Kracko said, petting the long
strands of blond hair as they swept down over the girl's shoulders. "With
something this foxy, I could have my own mid-town house. Wouldn't need to drag
the streets any more."
"A regular
street address, eh?" Mamey said, her voice thick with scorn. "Where
all your friends can find you."
"Leave off
me, woman!" Kracko warned. "You're getting me pissed."
"Hot under
the collar, I should say. Let her go, Kracko."
"I can make
it uptown myself," the girl said, blinking suddenly at the both.
"Thank you just the same."
She started away,
but Kracko grabbed her arm.
"Don't let
Grandma here, snarl things up, sweety. I can't let you go and get yourself in
trouble. This here's Sin City-- with every kind of pervert you can
imagine."
"And a few
you can't imagine," added Mamey.
Kracko sent a
searing glance at Mamey. "Don't listen to that bitch," he said.
"Cool Kracko will watch out for you, sweety, we'll take the bus
uptown--" he slapped his pockets. "--Say, Mamey. I'm just about
tapped out right now, you have some change you can spare?"
"You want me
to pay for you and your New Jersey tramp?"
"Who's a
tramp?"
"It's an
investment, baby-cake."
"An
investment in what?"
"Good
health, retirement-- money to keep the man off me."
"And what
happens to me? You've told me over and over how you'd dump me the minute
something better came along."
"I was just
bullshiting you," Kracko said. "Just cracking the whip a little to
keep you on your toes."
"And all
this time, I thought you wanted me on my back."
Kracko
straightened. "You're getting uppity again, baby-cakes, and I don't like
it."
"Is this the
whip again? Or should I take this as something else?"
"Look, you
two," the girl said. "I can see you're busy. I'll just wander off.
I'm sure someone will lend me enough for a phone call home. Or maybe Paul's
just in another bar, waiting for me to find him."
She took a step
or two deeper into the fog, but Mamey grabbed her arm.
"You don't
know men very well, do you, girl? They always disappear when you need
them."
"Men don't
leave me like this," the girl snarled, yanking her hand out of Mamey's.
"I leave them."
Mamey laughed.
"That's what we all like to tell ourselves, but when you finally look back
over the years, you get to see the truth."
"I'm not
interested in your life story. My Paul's different. My Paul loves me."
"Paul's a
man, isn't he? Paul left you here."
"Look,
ladies," Kracko said. "I'm not interested in who left who. I'm just
looking for some money to keep some tough people off my back-- so I can go back
uptown without fearing for my life. Now if neither of you's got cash for a bus
uptown, then I propose we go and make some."
"We?"
Mamey said. "I don't think there was ever a `we' in our relationship,
Kracko."
"There you
go again, bitch. Talking like you've been mistreated. Maybe you have, but not
my me. Ever since I inherited you, I've treated you right, keeping the scum
away from you, giving you your own little room...."
"A
bug-infested hell-hole, where I've had to put-out for the manager twice a week
or get dumped out on the street. I don't see where you had anything to do with
that either. I'm just your meal-ticket, Kracko."
"And not
much of one at that, dragging me down with that ugly face of yours. Now if I
had a babe like this," he said, leaning towards the girl again, his
slanted grin as greasy and wrong as melted margrin. "If I had her I
wouldn't be waiting for some thug to break my legs. I'd be living high and
mighty like those other fools, with a Park Avenue pad, thick rugs, servants and
a doorman-- keeping the scum from my door."
The girl looked
up sharply, her gaze losing some of the fog. She blinked at Kracko and Mamey
with an odd sense of distance. "A babe like me? What exactly do you
mean?"
"Come off
it, Darling," Mamey said. "Even you can't be that stupid. You
know what Kracko is, what I am, and what you are at heart."
"No, I don't
know what you mean," the girl said, her gaze narrowing.
"Leave off
her, baby-cakes," Kracko warned.
"Why? So you
can start bleeding her like you did me? So I can find myself on some darkner
corner with some even more desperate dude, claiming to be my man? Let her go,
Kracko. Let her do her thing back in Suburbia, where she can whore herself to
clean middle class boys and call it love."
"Don't call
me a whore!" the girl yelled, her voice echoing from the stone and brick
beyond the floating clouds of fog.
"What do you
call it over there then?" Mamey asked. "What difference is there
between you and me?"
"Plenty," the girl said, taking a
whole step back, her shoulders shuddering. "I don't take money for doing
it."
"But you
take other things-- you take favors of all sorts to let cold hands touch you, a
drink at the bar, a few flowers. But there's still the stranger's voice in the
end, whispering love in your ear as he invades you. I'm not blaming you,
darling. But every time you bend a smile or swivil your hips you're doing what
I do."
"Baby-cakes,
please!" Kracko moaned. "You don't know what you're blowing for me
here."
The girl stared
at them both-- slow comprehension draining her face, despite make-up and
flashing red barlights.
"Is this all
some kind of joke?" she asked. "Did Paul pay you two to do this? Is
he out there somewhere listening? Okay, Paul. The joke's over."
"Look,
sweety," Kracko said, easing towards the girl as the girl retreated, her
heals making her stagger in her backward flight. "Mamey didn't mean
anything by all that. You stick with me and we'll have more cash than you can
ever spend."
"Kracko," Mamey said. "Tell her
the truth. Tell her how you'll take every cent she has and when she's old and
tired, you'll sell her to some other pimp."
"I told you
to quit that talk, bitch!" Kracko howled without turning from his victim.
"She's everything I ever dreamed of, stop trying to drive her away."
"Like you
would drive me away if she stayed?"
Kracko moaned and
looked upward with impatience. "You got me all wrong, baby-cakes. We'd set
up house. You could be my madam-- like in all those other high class places."
The girl stared,
her stern face cracking into tears. "Paul?" she said in a
wavering voice. "Don't leave me here like this, Paul."
"Two pimps
for one girl?" Mamey said, leaning back against the lamp post with a
laugh. "Now really. We both know that won't work."
"Paul!"
"Shut up,
sweety!" Kracko said, striking her across the face with the back of his
hand. "You want the cops down on us? There ain't no Paul to come rescue
you, there's only me, and you'd better listen and listen good."
"Let her be,
Kracko," Mamey said. "She won't stick with you, even if you beat her.
She's Jersey. She's got momma and poppa to run home to....
"I told you
to shut up, both of you."
"I want
Paul," the girl said, sobbing.
"Maybe we
can both retire," Mamey suggested. "Maybe you and me can find some
small town somewhere where no one will know what we did. Wouldn't it be grand
to have peace for a change?"
"Peace? I'm
not looking for peace, I'm looking for magic. There's a fortune to be made out
here-- these streets are paved with gold. But you need a key. You got to have
that one magic ingrediant which makes it all work."
"And she's
it?"
"Maybe," Kracko said. "You
weren't."
He grabbed the
girl and pulled her close.
"Let go of
me!" the girl yelled, but his other hand clamped over her mouth. His
pressed his lips to her ear.
"You don't
quit screaming, girl, you'll be mighty sorry."
"No,"
Mamey said, charging at Kracko, yanking the girl away from. "You keep away
from her. The girl isn't yours. She's just mixed up, that's all. She doesn't
need to get trapped in this thing with us."
"She's a
bitch," Kracko growled, trying to reach around Mamey to where the girl had
retreated. Mamey knocked his hands away.
"Not this
time. She's no more gold than I am. You're just chasing shadows. All this is
just dead end. Even if you get her, someone'll just come along and take her
from you. That's the way the street works. The only reason you still got me
is because no one else wants me. You dig?"
"Help,
police!" the girl yelled, yanking off her shoes and she ran up the street,
her slim form vanishing into the fog like a wraith. Kracko shoved Mamey out of the way in an
attempted chase.
"Come back
here, girl. No one's gonna hurt you!"
"No,"
Mamey said, shaking her head as she laughed. "Nobody's gonna hurt you
much."
Then, she slumped
against the pole again and began to cry.